MY DIARY

My name is Soleil, like the sun,

but is not like I shine that

brightly.



Mom says I'm very...sensitive, but

I think it's because she doesn't

listen.


Anyways, today I bought a new pair of

socks, pink socks. They make me

feel...more like myself!

That smell...

For weeks now I've had a strange

smell, like old.


I don't know if It's me, I shower, I

wear sweet perfume, but it doesn't go

away.


I hope no one notices!

Children and children's things

I like kids, and I'm not talking in

that disgusting way!

They're honest.

They don't lie when someone scares

them.

They don't play blind like adults do.

I mean...

I want to protect them, even though I

don't know exactly from what.

Besides, I've been thinking about my

future, and I really want to have

kids!



Mom says, "You're 18, act like it,"

but people my age are so selfish.

unlike kids, I feel like I understand

them and love them like I'm their

mother!

My mood swings

I get angry and calm down really

quickly.

Sometimes I yell at Mom, but it's not

my fault. She's so unbearable and

doesn't understand me the way Dad

does!

Is this normal?

I want to think so.

Maybe seeing my father torture

innocent people is affecting me

too... I think I'm going crazy!

This is Strade :D My dad!



Sometimes we fight over Mom… but I


don't care, I love him so much :3!!



He's almost always in the basement

recording videos for the dark web.


I think that's how he makes a lot

of money.

Should I do the same? Be like him?

Maybe I'll do the same, but I won't

hurt innocent people!

It's been a year since I last wrote

anything in my diary...




This is Ren, a furry idiot my dad

kidnapped, and for some reason, he

didn't kill him and kept him as a

pet.

He put a shock collar on him.

He's SO annoying, I won't lie.

Sometimes I have to watch him so he

doesn't escape from the house.

But I do it for my dad; I want him to

be proud of me and follow in his

footsteps :3

Anyway, I heard from him that he

likes me HAHAHA, the jerk thinks I

didn't know.

Ren Hana